Own that $hit!

Perspective is everything, right?

Who you hang around – in person or virtually – determines where your “normal” is, right? If you hang around people who drink a lot, that’s normal. If you hang around people who exercise a lot, that’s normal. If you hang around people who are creative, that’s normal. If the people in your life are kinda’ jerky, that’s your normal. If you hang around people who are Ironman triathletes, that’s normal. On & on & on & on… ┬áThe idea of normal becomes very relative to where you are in your life journey. It’s also easy to forget that not everyone shares the same normal as you, or will see you as you see yourself.

Normal

Today I went to my ear doctor and figured since I was there, I should ask about ear plugs that are better than what you get at the drug store. So I mentioned that I swim 2-3x a week and do triathlons. This had not come up in previous visits. She asked me how long of a swim I was doing (since I mentioned I had one coming up & wanted to get my ear problem fixed before then). I told her the swim was just under a mile, but that I had done the Half IM swim back earlier this summer as well.

Silence & shock. More silence. The sound of silence.

Silence-header

Finally she said, “…WOW! those are real triathons!”

It’s easy to forget that most people DON’T swim regularly, don’t train for swims, or do triathlons at all. We’re a strange bunch. But it was a good reminder that even on days I don’t feel like a badass, it really is pretty cool that I can swim a mile. I wanted to jump off the table & say “Yessssss, I get it, I might not look like I can do that but I can!!” It was one of those moments where her medical degree and my triathlon experience felt equal. Sometimes there’s a big disparity between a doc & a patient…like they are so much better than you. I could almost feel the equality gel between us, nearly tangible. It almost made her more willing to help me with the ear plugs now that she knew I wasn’t just piddlin’ around in the water. I was a “real” athlete so she should give me some legit options with my ears. It didn’t make me mad or offend me, but I did notice the dynamic between us shift a bit. Very interesting. I’m guessing that as a female ENT, with a very pretty presence (hair, makeup, heels, thin, kinda’ sparkly) she has felt that exact shift once or twice herself.

I def left there feeling awesome about myself. Own that badass $shit about yourself! Anything that makes you feel powerful, strong, resilient, and a badass….own that $shit every single day!

earplugs pink

So I left with a cheap pair to try out before doing custom plugs that are almost $200. I’ll see how it works! Hopefully that will help with my ear issues. In the meantime, I’m gonna’ own it! =) Hope you do too!

training day 1

Very tired after a long training day. Doubtful & hopeful, all at the same time. 9/4/17

 

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The eclipse and triathon -what do they have in common?

eclipseIn addition to bringing people together through a rare scientific phenomenon, the eclipse highlighted something else. I heard so many people say something like this…”if I had been thinking ahead I would have X, Y, Z. I would have planned a trip around the totality zone..I would have got glasses for my kids….I would have taken the kids to the beach/mountains….I would have…”

I heard about this eclipse coming for a very long time. Kinda’ like Christmas. It wasn’t a surprise to me. How was this a surprise to anyone?? Especially to anyone fairly close to the totality zone. Here in Raleigh we were at 94%, but we could easily drive to the 99% zone – which is what my husband did and took this picture. Now, I get that it was weather dependent. If there had been rain or storm clouds, it would have been pointless and a total bust. So there’s risk with planning a big trip for something that might not happen. I get it. But isn’t that true with most anything? a beach trip, a camping trip, a trip where it could snow, a trip in hurricane season, a trip when the kids could get sick, on & on.

But that’s not really the point, the weather. The point is that so many people were in the “if I had known” mindset. Planning is so intuitive to me, it’s hard to imagine that I wouldn’t see this coming! Which brings me to the connection between triathlon & the eclipse. Knowing a big event is coming – like a triathlon or eclipse – requires planning, even if it’s just a little bit. Even with news & media shouting about it – IT’S COMING, IT’S COMING – we still dismiss it and say “meh…whatever, no big deal” ……………until it’s over.

Then we feel like this: crap, we should have made a plan to see it! we should have made a plan to finish the triathlon! we should have ridden that bike, committed to swimming, practice, leaned into the discomfort, embraced the burn in my legs…because the pain of regret really sucks. The rub of not sticking to the commitment is embarrassing. The depression of giving up on yourself is no joke. My oly distance is only a few weeks away and I’m feeling weary and really hoping I can finish without a DNF. I keep hearing that voice that says just drop back to the sprint distance, it’s ok! But I keep pushing that away. It’s loud and fierce in my head, but I will NOT step back. Only forward. And for me that means not saying the same version of “crap, I wish I had made a plan to see the eclipse.”

 

 

On my way to September!

I made a plan to tackle this 10K run coming up. I’m determined to not let it beat me! Knowing that I needed to feel more prepared for it, I was thinking ahead to how hot it will be then. Mid September in the OBX is really, really humid. Last year it was around 90 degrees at the finish and very humid. And that was just for the sprint distance, so add on a chunk of time to the finish line & it will be crazy hot.

I decided I needed to get one of those hydration belts, or something similar. With the shorter distances I haven’t really been concerned about needing fuel, but for the longer one & the heat I need to consider how all of that will work. The belts seemed really clunky & just in the way. So the person at the store recommended this little thing.

I was definitely skeptical. Do I really want to hold this thing through the run? Do I need it? Is it really worth the money? $30 seems a little excessive for this little “toy” to go run. Right? WRONG! It was soooo worth it! This is 12oz and it’s insulated so it’ll keep the drink cold. It’s also the perfect size for a Nuun tablet. The spout is easy to use with your mouth, you don’t need your other hand to open/close it. It doesn’t spill. And the hold on it is ergonomic. You can run with an open hand. It stays put. Maybe if I had this thing earlier I would have enjoyed it more! Probably not but I can think that. It’s made by Nathan.

So off I went! I did 4 miles with 1/3 of it running and 2/3 of it walking. I need to shift that ratio in the other direction eventually, but at least I’m working towards the distance. My goal is 6-7 miles by the beginning of September. It’s the most excited I’ve ever been about running so it’s nice to feel the potential. Moving forward is always good. Another 4 on the schedule for tomorrow. Woohoo!

NEVER STOP. EVER.

I AM VELOCITY